Written by Robyn Cruze. This article was first posted on ANAD “No one tells you that eating disorders are ugly. When I was enmeshed in my eating disorder, I felt the opposite. I believed it would keep me safe and in control, and make me desirable. I thought it was there to protect me frommyself.” I was wrong.
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I used to think surrending to my eating disorder, it would kill me. Surrendering felt as if I were throwing myself off a very tall building. I thought it meant I’d gain weight until I could no longer fit on this earth. I thought surrender meant that I was declaring myself a loser. Yet surrender is a… Read more
Just as it is a baby’s birthright to cry, it is our birthright to express ourselves. Being heard has always been important to me, but being approved of took its place. When I was a teen I searched for ways to hide my hurt, and accentuate what I thought people liked about me. It was… Read more
My Mum had spent a lifetime watching me struggle with an eating disorder. Only now that I am fully recovered do I get to truly see the pain I put her through. That is a hard pill to swallow when looking back at my story. I see that, although I had absolutely no intentions of… Read more
My daughter is eight and the tallest and most developed girl in her class. She looks 10 or 11 and has already expressed that her friend said she has chubby legs. She looks in the mirror and frowns. She says she is fat. Now, I am a personal trainer and group exercise instructor. I have… Read more